The boys enjoyed swimming lessons, we all had a visit with the dentist today, I went to a scrapbooking event tonight and I just enjoyed a really late night chat with my sister.
I've had a great day.
We've been so busy, I haven't really had time to think about this day... until now.
I happened to replace my bathroom handsoap today.... with my favorite smell from Bath and Body Works, Midnight Pomegranate.
I've used this fragrance of soap for well over a year... but every once in a while, I'll wash my hands and have an accute flashback to those days following Thayer's death. In those first few days, I was only alone if I was in the bathroom. I would often retreat to the bathroom if I needed a moment away from the crowd. I can remember sitting on the toilet and staring at a certain corner in the room... wondering if it was all just a bad dream. I can remember focusing on that particular corner and thinking "this can't be happening... This IS happening."
The soap will still whisper a reminder of those moments. I would wake early, get myself ready for the day and wander around the yard or the house. I remember one morning when I went and sat with my neighbor on her porch, just to grasp at a bit of normalcy.
I can remember getting dressed and ready for a trip to the funeral home, for Thayer's service and for my friend's fiance's funeral.
(wow. How'd I manage two funerals in one week?! God sure held me together, no doubt.)
Gee, I know that we've discussed the importance of smells in the past... but who would think that an everyday handsoap could "take me back" with just a whiff?
interesting stuff.
It's still my favorite soap.
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About Me
- Jill
- I was suddenly widowed in 2008 and was a solo parent to my two boys for nearly 9 years. I was remarried to my husband, Greg, in 2017. It's safe to say that the past years have been quite a journey for our family. It has been a blessing to see how God has written our story and been our provider.
4 comments:
I love that scent too and it amazes me what a scent can do to our mind!
I have crazy vivid flashbacks/memories from a certain shampoo that I used while I was on bedrest in the hospital. There have been several times that I have cried. . .
Amazing.
It is amazing how our noses can evoke such powerful emotions in our mind. Enjoy that sent for now for soon approaching will be pumpkin spice!!
So true- scent is the strongest sense tied to memory. In acting school when we had to dig up emotions for a tough scene we were told to "smell" a specific scent from a difficult time in our lives.
I used to think of my Babci's Ginatay...waterworks every time!
not that my situation compares at all to losing a husband, but it is weird how the little things can take you back. Every time I hear a helicopter it takes me back to the night of the fire, it is weird how everything comes rushing back as soon as you encounter a trigger like a sound, a smell, or a taste.
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