As I have testified, my current life is overflowing with blessings. The past months have been so full! New marriage, new-ish job, new house, new beginnings, etc. etc. Not a day goes by that I don't thank God for his provisions.
But here's the kicker, y'all! : For the past few months...at the end of the day.... I have been...unhappy.
I've known deep in my heart that my unhappiness is the fact that I have been slowly letting go of my grip on Jesus. And my prayer for several months has been, "Lord... give me a desire for You."
You see...with all of the new, all of the excitement... My focus changed. With so many blessings came so many distractions.
My heart and mind know that Jesus HAS to be the focus.... but I shifted my eyes... just for a second. And here I found myself with a Jesus sized hole in my heart and an aching for more.
So my simple prayer..... "Give me a desire for You.".
I wanted Jesus back.... but He felt out of arm's reach. How foolish of me to let go.
I reflect now about how many times I have blogged about being content. Content in my circumstances. Content in my waiting.
I now know that I was content because I had a death grip on Jesus. He was my intense focus. When our eyes are on Jesus, there is joy in ALL circumstances.
I was distracted by the blessings.... and my contentment dissipated.
I'm here to preach because I've finally witnessed this first hand:
There is no amount of husband, house, job, children, money, friends or family that can fill up your heart with joy and contentment the way that Jesus does.
My simple prayer.... "Give me a desire for You".
God has been answering this prayer boldly this week. Little things have shifted my focus and I've found that Jesus was right here, arms open. It's kinda like falling in love with Him all over again, yet we're picking up right where we left off.
Lord, fix my eyes on you.
