a little nudge

You know when you start a new job and you dream about it?...  Simply because it's new stuff that your brain is processing?   

Yeah, well,  there are some nights that I dream about dead people.   Not scary or disturbing stuff....just snapshots from the day.    And oddly, I've been ok with all of it.   Maybe not even "oddly".   I think my friends have always been correct when they say I have a "cold heart" and that I'm "dead inside". Perhaps I've found my people.  haha.

The upside of the death thing is that I've been thinking about Kids' Haven, almost daily. 
Here lies the proof that I'm totally not dead inside!  I do have compassion for people and I do have empathy for those who are grieving.
So.... I just applied to be a volunteer with Kids' Haven.    If I'm accepted- I'm hoping to help out with their summer camp and possibly help facilitate in group nights this fall.   I'm pretty excited to finally "give back" to an organization that helped me and the boys so much!  The connections that we made at Kids' Haven were essential to our journey and I am forever thankful for those friendships.  

Over the past few months I've thought about what a circle my journey is making:

I'm working at the same funeral home that processed Thayer's cremation, and now I'm seeking out the same group that was so beneficial to me and my boys.     
God certainly uses life experiences to mold us and send us down the path He desires.   Sometimes He is abrupt, and sometimes he nudges.
I would have never guessed that I'd be where I am today.   And I certainly can't guess where I'll be years from now.
The journey continues...

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I've been at the new job almost two months.  Since I'm super part time.... I still feel like such a newbie.  I continue to learn each day, and have gotten a grasp on the simple procedures and happenings.  I'm eager to learn new tasks and I'm still so appreciative of the directors who take the time to explain things to me.  Everyone continues to be so gracious and patient.   Such a lovely group of people.  I am so thankful.   I hope that I will grow to become an asset to the team.

I'm still adjusting to a "slower" lifestyle that came along with the job and trickled over into my personal life as well.   I'm working fewer days- which leaves me at home a few days each week.  Instead of overbooking my free time, I have learned to stretch out my lovely morning routine, keep the house in order, attempt to meal plan, run errands, and work in the yard.    Honestly, it's been such a refreshing change.    I am so thankful for my circumstances.  I don't want to take any of these moments for granted, since I'm aware things can change in an instant.
This feels like a new chapter, and I hope it's a long one.  

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The new job..... is at a funeral home!   Like I said.... entirely new for me.   It's been two weeks of part time work and I am very hopeful.   I come home at the end of the day feeling h a p p y!  I am learning a lot and I hope that I'll be able to settle in as time progresses.   The folks there have been super patient with me, and I am so thankful for their willingness to show me the ropes.   I'm not too sure of my schedule.... so I often joke about whether the boss will ask me to return for another day.    I'm set to show-up two more days this week, so I consider that a good sign.  

This is a HUGE change in pace for me and I'm slowly adjusting to the new surroundings. 
I was telling a friend that I still feel like a person at the end of the day..... not a tired, grouchy minion.    Since I'm not covered in sweat and milkshake splatter at the end of a shift, I'm able to run errands or do things after work.   Dressing in normal clothes is a welcome change, although a bit stressful as I piece together a wardrobe that will pass as funeral attire. 
All in all, I'm feeling like a productive person again! I'm excited to learn, to contribute, and to become a part of a new team.